My last entry was dated in Nov 2007. Goodness, it’s been more than a month since I blogged. Time really flies when you’re feeling sick.
While December marks a happy time of shopping and Christmas for most folks, I was languishing in a perpetual state of fatigue and morning sickness. It was absolutely horrible. I can totally understand why some mothers would want to stop at 1. The progesterone pills and jabs I had to take made the situation even worse.
I skipped Christmas shopping and Christmas overnight service entirely. The only gathering I attended was the one held at mum’s place, with close family members. Oh well, I did get one present for hubby – The Nativity DVD. He too was so zonked out from the youth camp that we agreed to spend Christmas day doing nothing but lazing around at home.
But thankfully, the skies are clearing up and I’m beginning to feel better now. My brother asked me the other day if I was feeling better from my morning sickness, to which I answered chirpily, “Yes! Now I just vomit once in 2 days.”
Duh.
The last visit to Dr Fong’s showed Baby M to be around 7 cm. He’s supposed to be around 9 cm by this time. But Dr Fong assured us that fetuses grow in spurts and the scan was probably done before the growth spurt. Nothing much for us to worry about. The next day, I felt this painful pulling sensation near my right abdomen that lasted a 2 days. The ligaments must be stretching – that means the uterus is growing – that means Baby M must be having that growth spurt Dr Fong mentioned! Yay!
We have decided to give Amniocentesis a pass. After some prayers and hearing Uncle Harry’s sermon, I felt the Lord speak to me. Rise up in faith and receive the blessings He was going to give us.
I waver between what is prudent and what is faith, as if they both are necessarily mutually exclusive. It’s a struggle sometimes. But rationally speaking, amniocentesis is not without its risks of miscarriage and it’s darn expensive – about $1K. Thus it may not necessarily be prudent to go for it either. Anyway, if the baby was seriously ill, the detailed scan in end Jan would show up any deformities.
We told Dr Fong of our decision and he gamely accepted our preference. He said it was fine with him because amniocentesis does carry a certain degree of risk.
Ok so all that remains now is the detailed scan scheduled at Thomson Medical Centre on 31 Jan.
I remember vividly that it was at this detailed scan that we found out about Hannah’s condition previously. So I think the wait till 31 Jan would be a heart-thumping one.
Help me Lord, to remain rested in you. I constantly waver between faith and doubt. Forgive my lack of faith in you, especially when you’ve spoken so clearly to me about Baby M. I’ve even decided that Baby M would be named 奇恩, as in《奇秒的恩点》because that’s what he really is. Mum reminded me the other day that the baby M was a miracle that was on par with the parting of the Red Sea. Interesting, because I’ve never seen it that way before. If this doesn’t show your keen interest in my life and your love for me, I really don’t know what would. Give me eyes of faith to see you everyday and to fall deeper in love with you every day Lord. When I’m weak, sustain me. When I’m in rebellion, have patience with me. When I’m down and out, hold on to me. Thank you Lord.
